It's strange to be back after two years. I guess I have time this CNY to do some reflection and did some accounting of my life and to be honest I really cannot remember doing anything significantly worthwhile since I was last here.
It is almost six years soon of my time in my current posting and it will soon be time to make a major decision on where to next. But I will come to that in my next post.
What I want to share today is this feeling of waking up with a fear that I do not really know God. Like I know what He's about, I even know what He's like, but I do not really know Him. It saddens me somewhat after so many years that I feel this way but at least I am glad that I have what's left of my life to know Him all over again.
That God has been patient with me wandering far in my work and other commitments and losing the first love that I had I am very thankful for. It has been so long and until today I did not realize that my heart has grown cold. It dawns on me that I am doing some work purportedly for God with efficiency but no real passion anymore.
I am thankful that He wakes me just in time before I make all the wrong decisions.
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